The point of equanimity

God is said to be the end and the beginning.

The end and the beginning, the alpha and the omega.

How can we understand this more clearly? Let’s look at it as simply as we can, in a way that entheogens would be able to relate and understand Instinctively.

I have a cup on my table, it is made of atoms. Atoms are made of energy, and so my cup is made of energy. This energy exists regardless of the cup’s existence, therefore, the cup has become and will also unbecome into and from energy. The same with ALL things. All things are made of energy, will return to it, and will also arise from it.

I personally call this the non-physical aspect of existence, and along with this, the key to understanding everything in the world. It is literally the very thing which seems to be the reason for all existence (and of course, the place where all things will eventually return to).

Another way to look at it is as equanimity. Balance and harmony.

Balance does not exist. Yet it does! How can we explain this? All things require balance to exist. All things will fall towards a center of balance, and until they do, will not rest. When things have found balance, then we could say things are much more peaceful than before, it can be difficult but it is possible in everything!

Balance is also like the non-physical (perhaps it is the same exact thing), because it is required for all existence, and it is where all things will return to, and perhaps also the cause of existence(though the latter seems difficult to grasp for me, I would have to ponder it more).

Balance does not exist, but it does. In all things, we say they are balanced, but to point to the balance, seems impossible. Yes we may say that we can point to the center of balance in an object, but if you were to place an exact point, you would not find it even on the level of atomic structure. It is impossibly precise, non-existent, yet without it, without any center of balance, the whole of the structures of all the things in the universe would instantly cease to exist. They would return to nothingness. The whole of the universe would collapse, back until the final center of balance(if time still existed to allow for centers of balance to collapse one at a time in chronological of their point of creation) until the ultimate center of balance, which we may call the ultimate source, or something similar. (Big bang?)

However this point of balance exists in everything, no matter what it is. Atoms require balance and harmony to exist. When balance and harmony are lost, a different point of balance and harmony must be found, it is an ultimate requirement for all things.

Now we can take this and apply it to our inner self. Who you are is harmony. You are balance. That is your nature. From within harmony you derive all your energy, every last drop of juice. Karma is when you have things that are trying to find balance, and when you have found balance, your karma is peaceful. Karma is made worse by not staying in balance. Energy can grow only when you are perfectly in balance. If you are perfectly in balance, your energy perhaps can be as great as the sun. Otherwise, if you are losing your balance, you are only bound to such a certain extent of energy, you are capped, so to speak, like a hurricane that can’t grow any larger, that is who you are, the eye of the storm, peaceful.

At the point of balance, there is no longer up or down, but instead, neither. If you are a student or reader of the Tao Te Ching perhaps you can find a relationship between what I’m writing and what the Tao speaks of. Long and short define each other. The point of balance is what allows such to exist.

When I take mushrooms or ayahuasca, I focus on this point of balance. I found that the feelings derived from it are that of love. Pure love. Ultimate mastery and incredible knowledge and greatness. I believe it to be the path of the Tao/Krisna/Etc.

Religious texts seem to complement the idea, though to believe it or not is up to you. The Tao Te Ching says that the Tao is “Smaller than an electron”. The Baghavad Gita says that Krisna is “Single pointed…[and] blissful”. It also says that if you “Aim at [Krisna], you are sure to reach [Krisna]”. If Krisna is indeed the single point of equanimity and balance that I write of, then focusing on this point of harmony should be the key to What the Baghavad Gita calls “Krisna Conciousness” and what I believe to be perhaps the road to Enlightenment and Nirvana.

To return back to the beginning and the end, Harmony should in essence, be God, the Beginning, and the End. To reach it however, I think is the ultimate solution for all living beings. For I believe us humans can either be in the ultimate, completely outside of all disharmony, or we can be in chaos, like hurricane it seems to be. All karma is simply disharmony, and therefore is highly predictable. To remove karma, is as simple as finding harmony, and understanding what prevents us from being in harmony(most likely karma).

Lastly A short Poem on this center of balance and my experiences on it.

It passes between people’s eyes your gut can sense it when on psychedelics it is the flow you can feel it, talk about it, but what it is? Who knows? If you look into another person’s eyes while on psychedelics, you will see it and feel it pass by, it will appear as a blue dot, that exists between people’s eyes, but does not exist physically in this world, it is impossible to describe or draw. Your gut will sense it pass by. You will be aware of it. It is real. When I first saw god I exclaimed, “Love is real!” I had not actually seen anything however, but on mushrooms I could not help but go with the flow I saw literally nothing, but yet I couldn’t help but exclaim that love was truly real Now I understand it is a single point, it is love itself When I try to open it up, the love itself, I see it is a machine there are workings within it, and it is something deeper than I believe at the moment I would look as closely as I could at it, concentrating all my energy upon this one single object, all my eyes focusing deeply as I could on that tiny little point, one tiny exact feeling, it is a feeling, that is all. And when it unearths itself, beauty expands throughout the world, and understanding seems to arise Things make sense, but not with logic, but something deeper the right answer seems to make itself known, simply by understanding, not by guessing it is total understanding when it is held in your hand, things seem to happen a lot especially on psychedelics It seems to be so precise in it’s existence, it seems to be the cause of all feeling, it seems to be everything at once, the entire universe, within you. If I had to map it out, it would be your soul, yet the same as everyone else, it is everyone.


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